Can you tell me?

I haven’t got the slightest idea what to do now. I mean, do I apply for college? Or should I just retake the exams next year? But I should at least try to apply this year right? And if so, should I also try the discretionary admission thing?

Gosh. Too many questions to be answered and none of them are familliar to me. I’m starting to hesitate about what course I should take up if I were to choose to apply now. But then again, my results won’t get me anywhere. And I were to try the discretionary thing, my appraisals better be fucking fantastic.

Argh. I cannot stand myself any longer.

Ever since POP, I’ve been partying then sleeping then chilling out then sleeping then partying again. Non-stop. It’s taking a toll on my body and I can feel it. But I don’t wanna stop you know. I just wanna enjoy myself before I head into hell again. I’m really hoping Monday wouldn’t come. RAH. I feel like killing myself. I hate it. Life is really sucky for me right now.

Bye, I need a drink.