Depressing

It’s been really tough lately. Not just physically but mentally as well. I think my old ailment is coming back to haunt me.

Possibly due to all the s***ing. But I really don’t care know. You know, it’s so hard to live by people’s judgementand rules. And I can’t exactly live by my own rules now since I’m not a civillian anymore. How sad is that.

I’m really excited to get to know where I’d be posted to next this friday. But not that hyped about having to report to a new camp, meeting new mates and all the rank crap. I just wanna be myself you know. My occasional mood swings are a lot more often inside camp. And I’m really tired to have to hide it because I hate to hide my feelings.

Anyway, I don’t want this to be emo post like what teenagers do. I’m a young adult now. I should probably be mature about stuff like these and move on. Yeap. That’s what I’m gonna do. Move on and stop thinking about it.

Bye